Journal Entry-May 3rd

Why did I start this diary?

People expect this diary to be full of things like death, and hatred towards myself. They're wrong. I don't hate myself . I just think that I am incapable of understanding why I do the things that I do. Others are incapable of understanding me.

I thought that maybe if I started this I would be able to get my message across somehow. I mean, it's better to have more than one way to talk instead of relying on something that others won't be able to understand ten years into the future.

I may be gone by then, but they say that the internet is forever, that is until something better comes along.

I want to make a couple things known.

1. I am not writing this to be liked or disliked. The fact is I don't care what everyone thinks. I'm going to continue doing what I think is right. They can try to stop me, but it will ulitmately solve nothing.

2. I am not writing it to get attention. I don't want attention. I never have wanted attention. I just want to be left alone sometimes. This is my way of telling the world what's wrong and how to fix it. It's my way of venting. It's just a journal, but it could also change the world if given a chance.

3. What's posted here is in fact the truth and how I truly feel. That goes without saying much.

4. I want to change the world. It needs to be changed for the better instead of destroyed by the human race. Maybe if things start to turn around, things will be better off. Until then, let's face it, we're screwed.

5. No one else has knowledge of this, at least not yet. Maybe they will one day. But until then. These are my thoughts.

So there you go. This is the first post in a journal that will hopefully change the world. Bit by bit I'll explain how that will happen. I hope.